The crap no one tells you about opening a business.

First off all, this entire process isn’t even a little bit easy. Everything is very methodical and every step is treated like it’s the most important in the process from beginning to end.

Sometimes it’s hard as hell to be nice.

So, so very hard.

I get harrassed enough by four kids all day long. The last thing I’m in the mood for? Fifteen different phone calls by fifteen different people trying to sell me on their damn credit card machines. STOP. I have enough to worry about, and calling me incessantly will only make me angry and I won’t think you’re a go getter, I’ll think you’re a thorn in my side.

Next, I can’t keep up with my house and family and baking and building, and grocery shopping and planning, and laundry and marketing myself and this blog…it’s all monotonous. I know that once the 2 little ones start preschool next week it won’t be so overwhelming, but when I am up until 2 am baking and the next night till 2am cleaning out closets, well it makes for a very crabby me. Don’t get me wrong, I’m excited and know that it’s all going to be worth it. Just keep in mind that it’s also incredibly scary and stressful.

Do me a favor, don’t comment on how tired I look, or that I’m kind of bitchy, or that I’ve lost weight. I have a lot of anxiety, self doubt, insecurities and worry. But I also have drive, motivation, and a fear of failure. Things will settle down a little at some point, but for now, give me a little bit of a break.

If you call me to chat, talk about yourself. I’m tired of talking. So, thanks.

Also, thank you to those who have commented or email me just a quick note of encouragement. I’ve been blown away by a few people who have written to me to say such kind things. It means more than you’ll ever know.