a Few Worries and a Whine.

I’m totally stuffing my face with a monster bowl of Tootsie Rolls to de-stress.

For the past two days I’ve been a maniac. I want to get everything going and rolling.

I should be able to sign the lease and drop off the deposit tomorrow, ordered my shirts, business cards, found an architect, (wasn’t even on my list and it’s checked off!) possibly found a contractor if the bid is acceptable, dragged my girlfriend to the restaurant recycle place to measure the appliances for the architect, ordering a “coming soon” sign for the window…shopping online right now for convection ovens and a zillion dollar Hobart….

This is one crazy rollercoaster.

And I love it, but there are things I DON’T love already.

I don’t love the nay-sayers. It’s amazing the kind of ignorance people blurt  out, things they will say TO YOUR FACE when you tell them you’re starting a business, especially a bakery. Most of the time, the comments are from people who have no fricken clue what the hell they’re talking about. I try to remember that those comments are a result of cluelessness, jealousy, and or both but it’s hard to have people be rude right to your face. Or when the people closest to you aren’t very supportive- at least not to YOU. I need a fairy godmother, STAT.

I am nervous when it comes to my kids. I hate asking people for help, and where you’d “think” I have help (cough *you know what I’m referring to if you know me*) I have zero. I am trying to draw up a plan on childcare, and it’s going to be an interesting juggling act. It makes me even more grateful for my location down the street from my house, and the fact I have two totally awesome siblingsitters in my house. Once we’re up and running, they’ll be on an unofficial “payroll” instead of an allowance. I just don’t want to commit to daycare if I don’t have to. Most people know I have daycare issues after everything that went down with Maeve. So I’m looking for alternatives.

If anyone knows of someone looking for something, call me. Seriously.

And lastly, I’m freaking about the floor plan. Too much to bother typing, but I’ve never ever had the urge to build a house, so this project might make that decision a solid, lifelong one! Hopefully it will go smoothly and I’m just being a dramatic whiner who has gained about ten pounds since May. Awesome.